Mission Statement

We are a people who tell stories in one form or another.
After all isn't blogging just another way to gather around and tell those stories?

Motherhood is Painless is about finding the humor in the every day. In finding the happiness in those stories that we tell. What would happen if we *all* learned to laugh at ourselves? Maybe then the dark corners would recede a bit and we would all rejoice at the love we find there.

Monday, May 5, 2014

These are my confessions

Ben took this picture. Explains why our heads are chopped off. 

There comes a time when you realize that *this* right here is what you were supposed to be doing all along. 

That the sadness and anger have faded away again - and while you might get frustrated from time to time, they are fragments of the reality that you are proud to call your own. 

For a time there, I was caught. Trying to plan for a future I could not yet see. Remembering a self that I was nearly a decade ago, and wallowing in its loss. 

But here I am in May, 2014. Nearly seven years to the day that I started this chapter of my life, I am content. I am content in a way I thought I'd lost, or worse, that I'd never find. 

When I was much younger, maybe in college, or just afterwards, I was talking with a friend, discussing what we wanted for our future selves. I told her that more than anything else I wanted to be a mom. The sort who hosts the play dates, and bakes cookies. 

I don't host play dates any more. And I don't bake cookies as nearly as often as I thought. However,  I am the mom the teacher assumes can go on the trip to the petting farm. The one who gets compliments on how nice/smart/clever the kid is. The one who - and I am not making this up - was told at some point that the one of the reasons they were considering a second pregnancy was because they had seen me with my kids and it seemed delightful. 

(Surely, if they could have heard me yelling at my kids, they might have had a second opinion on that last bit.)

It might not be the glamorous life I once thought I'd have. I'm not moving up a corporate ladder. I'm not pursuing anything but Ben in a game of tag. 

But I'll tell you what. It's my life. And I'm allowed to love it.   
C'mon, I get to spend all day with these goons?

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